bonjour,

2010-12-22T05:59:00.000-08:00

Oh, what the heck. I might as well blog.

2010.
I’ve done nothing but studying. It’s nothing but numbers, numbers and formulas. Imagine numbers propagating every single day. I’ve done little (almost zero btw) reading and writing to a point where I can’t construct proper sentence without any grammatical error and the help of google.com. I’m not complaining. I’m happy with what I have improved.

Okay. So I’m going to start writing in a blog just because I don’t like writing in a book. I like to type, and type. Then, delete, delete and delete. NGEH. (And i suppose i am trying to seek for a little attention)

However, this blog might just last for another 18 days. I will resume college on the 10^th of January. I will not have any time for any other things than my beloved school textbooks. According to almost everyone and everyone, the next six months would be torture/agony/misery. Rina would then have to turn on her hardcore nerdy mood. Yes, I am a fail nerd. (Fail nerd = somebody who tries so hard to be a nerd but isn’t smart enough to qualify as a nerd.)

It’s a terrifying feeling to study what I’m studying. (This statement should not be a general statement and isn’t applied for everybody) Trust me, I have nightmare at least twice a week. Waking up soaking wet. I would picture myself in a class full of Albert Einstein, holding a piece of paper with a big fat F on the top left corner. HORH! That is just horrible terrible vegetable, isn’t it?!

I might just have to resume studying, again. HOLIDAYS. Pfft, it’s more like study leave. They should just rephrase HOLIDAYS into STUDY LEAVE. At least we won’t feel the need of having fun. That way, we can fully concentrate on being a full time nerd. Yay!

Sometimes I wonder why I study so hard. I can just be a jobless person in the future and depend on my parents for food and shelter. I can sleep and watch tv everyday! Sounds absolutely tempting.

I have become such a mundane and anti social person. It’s so scary. When I look into the mirror, even I myself am terrified! HAHAHAHA!

I think I changed quite a bit this year. Not physically or my personality but just the way I percept things to be. Okay. Maybe my physical outlooks may have deteriorated a bit due to the amount of stress I carry with me. Hence, the very aunty-ahma look. GRRRR. If you are my TRUE friend, you have no choice but just to deal with it because you love me for who I am. Hehe J

I AM A VERY LOVING, FUN, AMAZING, CARING AND UNDERSTANDING PERSON. Save that in your head, please and thank you :P

2010-01-08T00:15:00.000-08:00

I've decided. I'm going to quite blogging.

I'm happy and i don't have to prove it to anyone.

Happy New Year :D

Much love.

2010-01-05T08:03:00.000-08:00

GUESS WHO'S BIRTHDAY ?

Happy Birthday, Sheryl Sayang !

I would do anything for you and you mean the world to me ! Love you always. You know how much you mean to me, don't you ? :)

Anyway, since you're living just next door. I'll probably hop there and tell you myself !

Much love !

2010-01-03T08:22:00.000-08:00

we had our little house warming today.

my little neighbour, how adorable ! :)

and so, we had a LokLok van and nasi lemak to gobble down. I'm stuffed. I am a fat pig :D

sweet dream, lovelies :)

Masquerade.

2010-01-02T09:06:00.000-08:00

Venue : Rahsia, KL.

2009-12-31T17:57:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year !! :D

We first went to KLCC, we found entrance ( since there were road block everywhere ! ) and how lucky we found the perfect parking space ! We walked out, and it was a havoc. And all the restaurants were closing down.

So, we gave up and headed to Westin. And how lucky, we found parking ! Hahaha. Since i started driving, finding a parking space for me is like finding a pot of gold ! Same goes to when the traffic light is green.. Haha Anyway, it was so much more fun along the roads between Pavillion and Westin.

I had fun, just because we spent time as a family ! Because dad was rarely around for celebrations, he is always outstation for work.

take one.

Daddy trying to imitate a pose from mingjack.

take two.

He thinks his pose looks like my brother's.. haha.

'' same what, no ? ''

and, mum got her kiss !

high school lovers. Who ever said love can't last ?

i love my parents :)

Things for me lately have been going so wrong. Argument with a taxi driver. Moving into the new house isn't so much fun anymore. We've been wanting to move in since early 2009. One year already, and interior work haven't been completed ! Nikkie getting rejected for grooming ( how is that even possible ?! ) Annnnd, my car stopped in the middle of the road, just after a highway ended... It just suddenly felt so heavy. And STOPPED.

OUH DEAR... !!

Sigh. I felt so helpless.

Anyway, every little things like just spending time with people i love would make me really happy. I'm happy :)

New year, new beginning. Hope it'll be all okay.

Hope yours is too, hugs.

2009-12-28T05:49:00.001-08:00

Hor Ri Na has been eating a lot and a lot ! Heeh. I gained weight :D Time for me to exercise. If not cannot walk dy, like humpty dumpty ! haha. Crystal Johhnn, where are you ? Let's go gym together-gether ! ;)

2010 is very very near. College is starting soon ! Everyone ready ? Got your new year resolutions yet ? How's everything so far ? Good ?

Mine have been alright. Could be better, could be worse. But, i'm happy. Feeling good ! :)

Hope yours is going well too, hugs ! :)

2009-12-27T19:47:00.000-08:00

i have two younger brothers :)

and they taught me about porn :P

2009-12-19T07:35:00.000-08:00

Aww I miss you, weiyun ! :)

2009-12-19T04:47:00.000-08:00

Joanne came over, and we had a lot to be done. Like collecting our school deposits, to picking up our prom dresses. We had the most horrible day ever. Nothing could go more wrong. Haha. It's so wrong, i have to blog about it.

First, we went to school. It was closed. Okay, nvm ! Then, we went to Taylors to pay Joanne's school fees. Long story short, we couldn't in the end and Joanne had to forgo her early bird discount.

It was raining heavily. We had to sacrifice our body and shelter our prom dresses. Both of us with one miserable umbrella which wasn't even ours ! Haha.

of course, we stayed as optimistic as we could.

'' It's okay. Today is going to be a good day, i'm sure ''

So we clean up and get it over with. After getting soaking wet and cold.. we went to pyramid. It was a never ending jam in the car park ! So, finally we gave up and paid the parking fees. Without even finding a parking ! When we reached the exit machine.. WE LOST OUR PARKING TICKETS !!

.... OUH SHIT.

I was ready to open my door and go down the car already. I had my whole apologizing speech in my head ! Because we were directly at the machine, and there were a long line after us.

We were beginning to feel tired, and it wasn't funny anymore. Of course, we panicked. And quickly ransacked the whole car up side down. We found it near Joanne's slippers. But by the time we found the ticket, i had already maneuver my car out of line. So, there we go, a whole round through the parking lot just to get to the exit AGAIN. :)

But in the end, i'm happy. It was a good experience, no babe ? Hahaha. And i got myself another Mitch Albom book titled have a little faith. I can't wait to start reading !

Okay bye bye :)

2009-12-19T04:39:00.000-08:00

Act cutee ! Hmph.

2009-12-18T18:13:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas ! :)

2009-12-16T18:58:00.000-08:00

i love i love. So pretty. Can we do a little christmas shopping now ? Heh :)

2009-12-16T17:42:00.001-08:00

Asia works.

Even playing cards allow you to discover yourself :P

2009-12-15T02:51:00.000-08:00

Photobooth 101.

Joanne and I went for prom dress hunt today :)

I got mine earlier, and this one shop had really nice dresses. So there we went. Also, today's the first Joanne drove herself over ! Heh proud of you babe !

... but we're not going to reveal our picks just yet ;)

2009-12-15T00:27:00.000-08:00

Second round of Asia works.

Haha. It's going to take many rounds of pictures.

Gordon doing the killer dance move. How sexy ;)

the sweetest medication ♥

Asia Works :)

2009-12-14T04:31:00.000-08:00

venue : the gardens.

micheal jackson :)

the most adorable buddy, wei yun :)

Thaddeus.

Shaun drop by for the after party too :)

along with Rain.

the rest of the pictures, i will have to get it from Rain. 600 plus pictures :) I just received a message from Thinesh and i feel like crying.. It's really sweet of him.

'' Hey. Thinesh here. I've been going around acknowledging a few people today from the training and i would like to acknowledge you as well. A beautiful young lady who's so down to earth. Extremely quiet and closed at first.. so energetic towards the end. You always put a smile on peoples faces with your kindness and gentleness.. continue to be beautiful on the inside and continue to make a difference in people's life. thanks for being the gift you are. You're amazing. And do the basic k ! Take care. ''

2009-12-13T20:42:00.000-08:00

I'm at Old Kawan Cafe with Joannee :) I managed to take out my camera for yesterday's graduation for Asia Works. *PROUD* but, i didn't take many sadly. Cannot upload anyway, blogger something wrong.

OK BYE BYE :)

2009-12-12T06:17:00.000-08:00

Joanne and I, otw to the rope course today :)

They say we look thirteen or fourteen. How is that possible. When i'm out, people would usually think i'm 20, at least. Haha.

I've been attending Asia Works, and it's been nothing but fun fun fun ! A little self discovery here and there along the way. Made a few good friends too :)

We're graduating tomorrow. Hence, a lot of pictures ! Hopefully i'll remember to capture pictures and not get carried away with enjoying my time. Haha.

2009-12-12T05:47:00.000-08:00

guess who's birthday was it ? :)

any clue ?

Whom all of us decided to spend the night with..

Nothing fancy or extravagant, just lil game of twister, a take out and a few movies were perfecto :)

Filled with joy, laughter, and silly-ness.

Most importantly, we all love her so much ! :D

Of course, she was pampered. It's ferragamo :p

and she made her wishes ;)

Happy birthday, sayang.

You know we love you ;)

2009-12-09T06:10:00.000-08:00

haha such a poser :)

She was asleep at first. When I called her name, she stayed quietly because i was holding a camera. So notty !

2009-12-09T02:50:00.000-08:00

You should begin your day with this picture.. haha.

I did it this morning, and i had a good day out with Joanne, Siew Yeng (Joanne's elder sister), Samuel and Terence. It works ;) haha.

2009-12-08T06:16:00.001-08:00

I wake up every morning with a fresh start.

I don't hold grudges.

If i do get angry, all will be forgiven the next day.

I can learn to love the things i dislike.

I'm not picky when it comes to food.

I need to keep myself as busy as possible.

I'm a total aunty.

I'm protective over people i love.

I care a lot, and would make it around the world for people i love.

I'm quite independent, i do everything on my own.

( from house groceries to enrolling into college )

I don't do flings so don't ask for any k ?

I'm not pretty.

I can't reject people, especially with those big eyes. Grr.

I don't like it when people take me for granted.

I don't like it when people take advantage of me.

I do the silliest things, some really embarrassing.

I enjoy making people happy.

I understand Tamil.

I'm fragile and sensitive.

It's difficult to let my guards down.

I'm naive and sheltered.

I'm not strong enough :(

I'm not judgmental.

I'm still self searching :)

Anything else i left out ? :)

2009-12-08T05:24:00.000-08:00

Ariel, Justin, Megat and Suyin. ♥

I love you too babe :D

I had a good time today. Good lunch, good dinner ;) Period.

2009-12-07T02:58:00.000-08:00

Hahaha so ugly.

Suyin will be coming over tomorrow. Dumdeedum ;)

2009-12-06T06:41:00.000-08:00

Aww. i just found the link to all our graduating pictures in Zhilyn's blog.

I miss everyone.

my class teacher :)

http://www.flickr.com/photos/hafizuddindahalan/sets/72157622729755540/

2009-12-06T05:53:00.001-08:00

I'm no longer an aunty...

item 281453-22.

I've upgraded to grandma ! Haha.

Haha, was looking through my bills and i found the silliest name for most of the items i bought. Kari grandma dress ? Haha. Please correct me if kari means something else than kari chicken :P

This particular receipt is from cotton on. I love how casual and comfy their clothes are :)

2009-12-05T03:46:00.000-08:00

I've been away from internet connection for too long ! Haha. Anyway, i'm at Ariel's. We watched paranormal activity. It's actually gooood. Nice, based on true story. To me, it's better than any horror directed movies. But, im definitely going to have problems sleeping tonight.

I'll be going for my former sunday school concert tomorrow. It's been so long. I used to attend sunday school classes when i was younger :)

Suyin's back ! Hoho. You know what that means ? No more loner time. I'm going to kidnap her all to myself. Hear that, tagem ! :P

I'll be attending Spade Party, hopefully it'll be fun. I found my prom dress. I've enrolled to Taylors. I've done a lil shopping spree. I've cushion wash and clean whatsoever possible way for my whole entire car. Amelia said my car felt empty hahaha. It's usually filled with my belongings, like my second home :)

Now, sounds like i've accomplished a lot yeah ? :D

2009-12-01T22:43:00.000-08:00

kawan-kawanku, movies and ice cream day out. perfect combination :)

2009-11-30T04:29:00.000-08:00

It's the little measures that do wonders, really.
Like having good companions, laughters and running around crazily.
Now, who's up for it ? ;)

and, it's mega sales !
That's a good plus.

For spm-ers, hang in there. It'll be over real soon ! All the best :)
For O level-ers, where've you all been ? I miss school, kinda all of you :)

2009-11-26T04:29:00.000-08:00

my sister's keeper.

A good movie. I cried a bucket full. I'm probably a big cry baby, but i think the toughest person on earth would also cry. At least a tear drop. Get your tissues ready. I didn't and as a result i was swimming in bed ! Haha. Okay, i exaggerated. Of course, the book is better. But what do you expect ? You can't have every little detail mirrored onto the movie, now can you ? :)

It's a good movie. I'm not going to spoil the fun. Just go watch it ok !

Next up, coco channel. I think i should do movie review instead of blogging about my boring self since i'm an expert couch potato already :P

2009-11-25T04:48:00.000-08:00

As much as i hate to admit this, as this may sound all girly and maybe bimbo-tic, i watched GossipGirl season 3 volume 1. And, it's better than ever. I love the happy ending and how it fits Chuck and Blair. For those who haven't watched it yet, i suggest you do so. It's nice :)

In contrary, naughty nikkie gobbled down many of my belongings. Worst, she's all sneaky and cheerful about it. Don't get me wrong, i love her and all but this has just gone way too far !! So angry. Grr ! Haha. My heels, to hairbands and now, my solid perfume cover. It's crazy, i tell you. It's metal and solid hard for christ sake. It's now dented. And when you scold her, she goes all big eyes on you ! Horrible.

We cooked Hello Kitty pancakes today ! I wouldn't say it's all success, but i guess it's the heart that matters, no ? Haha ! In fact, the dough was pretty nice though, honest ;)

I want to be happy ♥

2009-11-23T20:19:00.000-08:00

Waiting for amelia to come over. Banyak lama oh ! :P

*edited.

Amelia finally came :)

That's how she rolls ;)

Haha act only !

Today was great, i had fun. I bet tomorrow will be too :)

I'm going to go be a couch potato for now. I bought new movies heeh. Haha, talking about dvds kan. If anyone wants to borrow, feel free to borrow it from me k. I have quite a few and it's rotting at home. Don't waste money, people ! :P

I have all season of one tree hill, gossip girl, house, chuck. Korean and hongkong movies too !

Feel.

2009-11-23T07:36:00.001-08:00

I have this feeling. I'm afraid of growing up, having this life of my own. It feels awfully scary. Imagine making all these decisions that actually mattered !

With all the responsibilities, imagine being committed to this family and having a career of your own. It frightens me, but at the same time i can't wait to see what's to happen 10 years down the road.

Truth to be told, i'm afraid being alone and left in the dark. I get goosebumps when i'm all alone, and i feel like i can fall anytime. Or, someone could just come and gobbled me down ! Or even worse, i feel like someone could grab me at my ankle, like those in horror movie. Haha, okay that is due to watching too much movies.

Talking about horror movies, it is the reason why i'm up and i can't go to bed. I watched Phobia2 today, well at least part of it ! Haha. Joanne and i pulled out halfway :) So, i have no choice but to keep myself busy with blogging and hopefully fall asleep along the way.

I have lots of mixed feelings at the moment. Running through my mind constantly. This is why i love exams ! Haha. When i have nothing to be occupied with, my mind is filled with these nasty cloud like bubbles talking to me !

So, that's a little about how i feel. I feel vulnerable. I feel unprotected. I miss my family :)

I need to lock myself up. Stop myself from feeling. Make it as numb as possible. It's easier that way. Don't you think so ? Haha.

2009-11-22T06:17:00.000-08:00

I'm so bored, i camwhore with myself.

I'm so bored, i'm actually playing taptap continuously.

I swear if this continues, i'm going to rot to death.

Did i tell you how i like keeping myself as busy as possible ?

Even if it's for the ridiculous of it all.

Exam's over and i feel so empty. Haha.

I was occupied with tuition 24/7, and suddenly it is all over.

I went to gym today. And, right after that i ordered Mcd's large set ! Heeeh.

Let's go try something crazy for once. Anyone up for it ?

Anyway, lunch with Mr.Sek and the gang tomorrow ! looking forward :)

2009-11-21T00:14:00.000-08:00

Oh my. cute guy alert ! :P

heh what you looking at.

aaa. check my tonguee.

yours truly.

2009-11-20T02:09:00.000-08:00

I'm bored. Super duper bored.
I think i have more fun preparing for exams !
At least, i had something in this head of mine.

I'm bored. I drive around aimlessly.
Searching for activities to occupy myself with.
Not to mention, my internet connection at home died on me.

I did managed to enquire for some culinary courses.
Hopefully i'll begin soon.
Pastries anyone ?

It's just a few days after my exams,
but it sure feels like forever.

At least i'm having plenty of sleep now.
And, i'm eating :)

I miss school.
I miss my friends :(

this just proves how bored i am.
I only use my camera when i'm dead bored.

2009-11-17T03:38:00.001-08:00

the one soul who never seem to give up on me.

when i'm in bed..

when i'm driving..

even when i'm in the bathroom !

She's crazy, i tell you. I love her :)

2009-11-16T01:47:00.000-08:00

OLevel's exam is finally over and done with. Just left SPM bm papers to go !

And, so i finally made used of my camera. Haha, i have my camera with me all the time but somehow it'll never be anywhere out of my gigantic bag. Mum thought i might need a camera for emergency purpose.

Our destination today : Bangsar Village.

Ariel and I.

Jeff, Paul and Justin.

As delicious as the name of the restaurant looks, wait till you see the real deal !

Salmon.

Fried calamari.

Chicken.

and the list goes on..

To me, the best was still the carbonara pasta. Too bad we gobbled it down, right when it was served. Hence no picture ! Haha.

Ahhh, did i tell you how good food makes me go really happy for the day ?

Justin and i going crazy for desserts. Shame on us ! But, i swear it looked really tempting. One of the cupcakes had gummy bears ! How adorable is that. Too bad we were already stuffed when we finished our main course :(

That's pretty much what was caught on pictures. We had a great day, and the rest of the memories are left for us to treasure. And not to be shared in blogs ! Bwahaha :P

Ok bye ! (;

2009-11-15T03:54:00.000-08:00

smile your way through :)

2009-11-14T03:36:00.000-08:00

Just one more Chemistry objective paper to go ! Can you just taste the burden-less post exams ?

Most of the art students are already off to celebrate their freedom. For all spm-ers, don't worry it'll pass in a brief and all the best !

I've been quite occupied, and been going out for movie or two. Sleepovers, and more to come !

Not to mention, charles and keith is having sales ! Nice grabs, girls !

I don't really believe in sales marketing gimmick, i just get things i need at that specific time. But of course, it's always nice to purchase on bargains ! As much as i hate to admit, but shopping is orgasmic ! I'm sorry, mum. I'm working on my controlling skills, i promise. Haha. It's especially more irresistible to shop with my girls. We do the silliest things in the changing room, it's real fun !

Will update soon.

HAHA how cute :)

2009-11-10T03:46:00.000-08:00

Ehh..

i want sayang sayang also.

2009-11-09T00:23:00.000-08:00

I'm losing weight. Sobs. I need to EAT EAT EAT !!

Anybody want to makan, call me ok !

I'm happy today, good day :)

2009-11-07T19:42:00.000-08:00

'' AIYOOO ! Please clean up ! ''

Haha. Only my closest would understand :P

2009-11-07T17:53:00.000-08:00

how cute :)

let's have some fun, and play dress up.

and, capture every moment of it.

this part of life, i'm just not willing to miss !

2009-11-06T06:31:00.000-08:00

curly whirly whurly.

So, where are we now ?

2009-11-05T06:04:00.000-08:00

Shila from OIAM 2 :)

Singing : Through my window by Bunkface.
Semua buatan malaysia ! :D

2009-11-05T04:22:00.000-08:00

Hey :)

exam hall.

Two weeks down, one and half more to go ! Oolala, i can't wait ! Haha.

Things for me so far ? I've had a fair share of ups and downs lately. Sum things up, i'm keeping myself as busy as possible. I need to be strong. I'm going to finally curl my hair back this weekend :) Definitely regretted taking the drastic plunge earlier this year, chopping off to bangs. Haha. But no harm, at least i tried.

toilet break, with Sheryl and Amelia.

And, did i tell you how easy it is to spend money nowadays ? Like water ! I spend at least 15 bucks just on food a day ! Which rounds up to RM450 a month on average. This amount is just on normal, economical, basic food. Not including, if i do go out for a movie ! Ouh dear. Winston asked me the other day, and i just realised how much i've actually been spending ! It's shocking. Petrol fees, parking fees, snacks, to daily supplies. I'm only 17, and not working.

Haha. I do sound like aunty now, don't i ? YES YES. I'm an aunty. I have shitface and a face problem to deal with. I'm crazy and also, retarded. Happy, winston ? Haha you asshole !!

kiss kiss.

2009-10-31T01:07:00.000-07:00

Random pictures..

Nikkie sayang oi ! Her ber-emo/manja face. Crazy girl.

Mrs. LimBeeLee. She's the most adorable teacher ever :)

JeremyLoh :)

I watched a movie yesterday. time traveller's wife, it's nice. Go watch :)

Life's okay for me. How about yours ? :D

2009-10-25T04:58:00.000-07:00

graduation dinner !

mr.chew :)

Amelia :)

Eileen and Amanda ! Both the most adorable.

2009-10-25T04:46:00.000-07:00

A video crystal showed me. Sadly, only in fairytale ♥

2009-10-24T17:18:00.000-07:00

my daily dose ♥

1. Mr.sek have been someone i can talk to, really anything at all ! Even i myself is surprised. Like my best friend, i can laugh, scream and even cry.

2. Samuel is someone who we'll talk crap together ! Calling me shitface, poopooface, and the list goes on.. He's the meanest person. But deep down, i have to admit that he's nice laaa.

3. Winston has the most creative ideas. Haha. He does everything spontaneously, and he take chances. Yet responsible and serious at the same time. It's fun being around him. He's soft and fragile on the inside :p

4. Amelia is the kind of best friend who can tell me straight to my face, that i'm annoying ! and i like that. I know she'll have my back, when i fall. She looks like a happy go lucky person on the outside, but deep down, dang she's strong ! Don't play play :p

5. Ariel and i, we've had a long way through. And all this while, she had my back. And i can trust her, with my soul. I laugh a lot when i'm around her. And that isn't good, because i'm going to have wrinkles much early ! Haha. I love you babe :)

Aiyo i think i should stop here, i damn malu dy. Being all sentimental. Haha. But i have a long list to go.. Joon jern, Jo anne, Sheryl, Suyin, Crystal, Ailin, Song ling, and Paul.

I just want to tell them that i love them, and they mean a whole great deal to me ! :)

* crystal john you no more LOL anymore, cos i love you ! haha.

2009-10-21T12:21:00.000-07:00

Hello.

I'm really supposed to be studying. But resting for a bit won't do any harm :) I've been really occupied with tuition. And, i've been eating out a lot. Well, at least it's a good thing that i'm eating. I've been eating a lot of malaysian food. I learned a lot of new vocabularies. Such as kok fa, suiet cha add gula, umbra, katchai sumui, siew mai, pai guat, pakkai ? Hahaha !

Not forgetting, Mr. Sek have decided to bring the whole bunch for bakuteh session all the way in Shah Alam ! Haha ouh dear. Anticipating for it though :) Apparently it's better than klang bakuteh.

Should i start modeling ? :/ A friend of mine is working in this field and he suggested for me to make my profile first, if i'm considering. But i'm not cut out for it lah kan ! I think i should just stick to being a dermatologist :P It would be a long journey though, i would have to be a general doctor first. Which would take me around 5 years, and 2 years of practical, no ? And then only venture into being a specialist in skin. Big dreams for a small naive girl like me. But i don't mind studying honestly :)

I guess the last option would be to take up business. But if i'm aiming for top universities, i would have to get a minimum of 3A or 2A1B for my A levels.

So, it's either business or dermatologist.

Hence, i'll be taking up chemistry, math and accounts. I would want to take up Biology, but Taylors only offer Physics with the combination i want.

I'm keeping my options open.

The Bravery - Believe

2009-10-20T10:33:00.000-07:00

O level is next tuesday !!

Already 1.39 a.m. and photobooth releases stress ! Haha.

selamat malam !

2009-10-17T21:56:00.000-07:00

my aunty pose. hmph !

2009-10-17T09:18:00.000-07:00

Car got broke in and laptop stolen.

Got my slippers stolen in a korean restaurant. Ouh dear.

Suyin, it's the one you got for me babe :/

Everything is going so wrong, alamaks !

third gear.

2009-10-14T07:52:00.000-07:00

1. Today is Hugo's 17th birthday :)

2. We watched Where Got Ghost. Hillarious :)

2. I ate 3 full meals today. And, i'm so full even until now. Mr. Sek gave me a cup of lime water. Haha. I don't really know how that would help actually.

3. It is also the last schooling day for Joanne. She'll be leaving to Australia. It's sad that she have to leave so soon. So we had a little dinner together. Samuel belanja, for the first time ever ! Lets just say, Samuel and belanja don't go along well.

4. O levels is just one week away.

5. So here are the pictures, winston chew mo koh. lol

Winston Chew.

Tokyo G.

Not to mention, i had two tuitions today.

Winston, i'm really tired d and blogger's really slow. I'll just pass you the rest of the pictures tomorrow kay ? All the best in your driving tomorrow !

AND BTW, i'm single. Not attached. In case any are wondering :)

2009-10-13T03:59:00.000-07:00

i'll miss school :)

'' cheesee ''

well, he just looks like this all the time ! haha

2009-10-11T21:18:00.000-07:00

heh. i just woke up :)

lol. my mummy playing superman with nikkie :)

my god. i've been watching SNSD. and it makes me feel so lesbian ! haha.

time for me to go study ! hoho :)

2009-10-10T18:53:00.000-07:00

see la, her eyes so big. how to scold her like that ? :)

act cute.

poser.

crazy girl.

Everytime i go.. '' no, nikiie go in the cage ! ''

She'll stop, look at me, run and hide under the bed. Because i can't catch her under the bed. How naughty !

Mum brought home a camera for me. It's pink, how cute. Thanks mummy :) She's finally coming to graduation dinner too. Heh :)

2009-10-10T06:16:00.000-07:00

I had a pretty good day lah. How about you ? :)

2009-10-08T03:57:00.000-07:00

I'm craving for a change.

I just want to be happy. Be carefree.

Jump around.

Is that too much to ask ?

Maybe i'm asking too much.

I hate being so emo. This is definitely not me. haha So, cheerful me please come back quick ! Malaysia boleh ! hoho.

O levels, here i come ! study study study.

2009-10-06T03:41:00.000-07:00

I'm in a mess, my own mess i created.

I tend to keep everything to myself. And, it's beginning to take its toll on me. It's simple things that accumulate up. At the end of the day, i'm simply just lost. Till the extent i don't even know what has happened and what not.

To be honest, i don't know how i feel. I don't know what to expect. I don't know how to react. I don't know what's to happen next.

But then again, there're just things that i rather keep to myself. Nothing in this blog or anywhere else, or anyone for that matter whom i really pour my true feelings to.

One thing's for sure, i honestly dislike dramas and controversies and i'm not looking for any. Just because i don't explain how i feel to the world, doesn't mean i don't have feelings. I have feelings, too much infact. Sometimes, i have to stop myself. I get affected, way too easily. It's not nice for some who assumes they know me well, and start spreading news that isn't true.

I'm happy, really :)

2009-10-04T02:11:00.000-07:00

Haha. I have a round face, and multicoloured highlighters.

Anyone want to study with me ? :)

2009-10-03T05:29:00.000-07:00

amazing friends + lantern day + picnic + monopoly = a very happy me.

beautiful lighted candles.

i wish i can be a child, everyday :)

It was an exercising thingymagicy.

Continued with a sleepover. The next day.. with gym session, donuts for my brothers, a good lunch, and good laughter at the end of the day. I'm happy :)

Happy mooncake festival, everybody !

i hope you're happy too :)

2009-10-01T08:37:00.000-07:00

I'm just going to reminisce the happy moments :)

1. I passed my add math, for the first time ever.

But, it's not exactly a good thing considering it's just one more month to the real exam.

2. I've been spending time with my younger brothers.

3. I've been eating, which is a good thing ! :)

I usually forget to eat consistently. Usually, I'm either occupied or just not hungry. So, when i'm actually hungry, i gobbled down huge amounts. Which is bad.

4. I'm going to celebrate lantern festival tomorrow.

Winston invited a bunch of people, and hopefully it'll be fun to play with fire ! instead of the lanterns itself. bwahaha :)

5. I've had quite a number of reasons to keep me smiling.

And, it's nice. I would like it to remain this way :)

2009-09-26T20:50:00.000-07:00

Photobooth 101.

Save the earth, yo !

Boo !

2009-09-26T06:11:00.000-07:00

My puppy chewed my heels ! gulps, my favourite heels. so terrible nikkie :(

But else than that, everything went well today. I'm going to make everyday of my life a good one. So, i'm going to treasure all the good memories and let go off all the terrible things. Like my heels !!

And, Suyin will be leaving to Aus this coming friday. And, exam is in exactly 30 more days. And, i haven't really been studying. My results aren't satisfactory. And, I'm tired. And, i got peed on by Winston's doggie, Hero today. Haha. I can never go near a male dog without getting humped.

Ouh dear. my life sucks.

Haha :)

B.E.P - Arthur's day.

2009-09-25T11:08:00.000-07:00

sunway lagoon, surf beach.

Songling, Hugo, Ailin and Amelia. :)

we had a good time, didn't we ?

this is how i look after, all sweaty and stinky. hoho.

tonight is a good, good night ! booom boom paw !

2009-09-24T07:24:00.000-07:00

1. Brought my brother out to make his dinner outfit. Got him a pink and white top :)

2. Went for two tuitions. Did i tell you how much i enjoy my tuition every single time ? Haha.

Mr. Sek and Mrs. Lim rocks ! Hoho !

3. Went out for dinner with Samuel and Winston. Pretty good dinner, very full and happy :)

4. Before tuition we had a little extra time, and we just finished our dinner. Hence, we were all hyped up. Haha. And, guess what we did ? Because Mr.Sek's house was filled with his student's car and there's no other place for me to park the car. So, we drove around ss18, blasting with chinese new year songs. I swear it's Winston's idea ! :P Haha. He even climbed out of the car, so spontaneously. It was humiliating but hilarious at the same time.

5. I haven't had a good laugh in a while now. And we all had fun today, didn't we ? I wish i can do things spontaneously in life. Once a while, to let our hair down, go crazy and just have fun, you know ?

Tomorrow's black eyed peas and another two sessions of Mr. Sek's tuition ! Hopefully it'll be fun :)

2009-09-22T09:41:00.000-07:00

Just today, i had to pick someone up. i had extra time, without any parking.

so, i decided to drive around, aimlessly.

It was actually mind relaxing. i started thinking of the most random topic i can ever think of. But most importantly, everything ended up with a '' what am i ? what are my purpose ? what am i going to be ? ''

First, i gotta stop dreaming and start studying for my O Levels because this result can actually make a difference in long term run !!

Of course, i want to be successful. Who doesn't, kan ?

I want to be successful in something i'm most passionate about. I want to be a successful child, make mum and dad proud. I want to be the best sister for both my younger brothers. I want to be the best mum. I want to be an understanding wife. I want to be rich in love :)

I'm certainly not looking for a rich guy, with jet planes and a walk in wardrobe installed for me. Yes, of course all these materialistic things are nice to have. But all these wouldn't last long. I've seen many, many life dilemmas..

I've seen people who seemed to have it all. Wealth, multinational company, a family. Anything, you name it. But, somehow they aren't happy at all. Husband's cheating on his wife. Wife doesn't have a clue. And, it is a lie that have lasted one or two decades. The best part is, i've seen not one or two of these type of dilemmas. But, a handful and still counting.

So, what is life all about ?

I don't know. It's for us to enjoy figuring out, enjoy the process.

How are we going to be truly happy ?

I guess it's just to be happy with the simplest things in life.

Okay. babbling too much. need to sleep. Bye !

2009-09-22T04:14:00.000-07:00

haha. nikkie's eyes so big. cute anot ? :)

btw, anyone going for Arthur's day this friday ? :D

2009-09-21T09:10:00.000-07:00

You put your right hand in,
You put your right hand out,
You put your right hand in,
And you shake it all about.
You do The Hokey Pokey
and you turn yourself around
That what it's all about !

2009-09-19T06:40:00.000-07:00

hoho. i had fun today :)

Outing with my suying syg ! I miss her banyak-banyak. It was all good. Finally found my graduation dress. lol, it's a happy dress and suyin picked for me :) See lah, you have to study in aus. And every time i try to look for something, i won't have my advisor around :p haha. We had good old malaysian food today. Pretty good, i must say. But we ordered a whee bit much. Satisfied tummy, with satisfied purchases. Love you babe !

Not to mention, mum came home earlier today with domino pizzas. Woohoo. Haha. She's been coming home late night, around 1AM, every night for the past week. My mama is a superwoman, baybeh ! Haha. Spend some time with mum and brothers. She was talking dirty, and my brothers are finally old enough to understand her. We all had a good laugh :)

and Ariel, i hope you like the salon i introduced today. I'm sure you look good with your new smexy hair :P

Selamat Hari Raya. Adios amigos !

2009-09-18T04:05:00.000-07:00

Guess who's coming over tonight ? :)

BWAHAHAHAHA !

2009-09-16T07:28:00.000-07:00

i found..

haha. hair disaster for me.

both of them make me like look that, everyday :)

2009-09-15T05:52:00.000-07:00

Okay. I've decided.

I'm going to be single all my life. Hoho :)

My brothers allowed me to live with them when i'm old and wrinkly.

haha. picture taken while we were stuck in jam.

'' cheche, you should take picture of us and blog that we're stuck in the jam ''

It was funny because we had micheal bubble playing on the radio and it sang, '' I wanna go homee '' and we were literally saying how we wanted to go home.

till death do me apart.

2009-09-14T19:51:00.000-07:00

when i die, i'll miss being alive.

when i'm 70, i'll miss being able to walk properly.

when i'm 60, i'll miss being able to run.

when i'm 50, i'll miss having my menstrual.

when i'm 40, i'll miss having my kids living with me.

when i'm 30, i'll miss my body !! because i'll have kids then, i'll be fat and old. Haha !

when i'm working, i'll miss my carefree childhood because everything would be about money and the survival of the fittest.

when i'm studying uni overseas, i'll miss the convenience of being able to drop by to the nearest mamak stall.

when i'm in my college, i'll miss high school and uniforms ! Haha.

when i'm in high school, i miss how drama-less primary school used to be. How carefree we used to be when we are much younger.

when i'm in primary school, i'll miss how we have concerts annually in kindergarten.

when i'm in kindergarten, i'll miss wetting my bed !

when i'm younger, i'll miss how our parents would treat us like we're the world to them. Because this is when we start getting punished if we misbehave.

when i'm a baby... well i can't remember anymore. Haha.

So the morale of the story.. we should appreciate what we're going through now. No matter whether it's difficult or easy. If you feel like laughing, laugh it out loud. If you feel like crying, cry it out louder under big fluffy pillows. Because all these experiences are what makes you, YOU ! :D

Because in the end, we're going to miss being alive. It's the journey that counts and not the destination baybeh.

2009-09-12T08:50:00.000-07:00

My first scratch. Oh dear.

My heart fell right on the floor and broke into pieces.

(But, rest assured. my brothers and i are all safe,

and it's the scratch and not the dent. Everything is okay ! )

I had a happy meal today :)

2009-09-11T05:51:00.000-07:00

i want to be happy. do you ?

and, i have a spiderman thingymagicy from the happy meal, anyone want ? :D

2009-09-09T09:05:00.001-07:00

Haha. Okay, false alarm. One more post before i go. I can't sleep. Going to make this a quick one and hopefully doze off soon enough.

Today is satisfactory. Got some of my better off results back :) and, went for tuition. Drove the guys back.. Haha. Quite embarrassing actually. On the way to Winston's..

'' Turn right after this okay ''

'' Okay ''

---

'' Turn right okay ? Faster turn lah ! ''

'' I need to look the other side first okay !''

" RIGHT RIGHT RIGHTT ''

'' Yeah i know, i'm turning right !! ''

....

'' THAT IS LEFT LAH !! ''

'' ouh. haha ''

Sigh. Haha. But else than that, everyone survived :) Samuel even sat back for the first time. That's a big thing okay. Haha. He's usually screaming for no apparent reason. '' OI Car car carrr ! '' And i myself, managed to drive home in one piece.

Okaylah. My blog is boring. I am mundane. Even i myself, is bored of myself. Suyin's coming back ! Hoho :)

2009-09-08T05:55:00.000-07:00

OKAY. Trial results are horrible and terrible.

IGCSE is in about 1 month time.

'month' is no longer in plural form, it's omg singular form lol.

which simply means,

i have to pull up my socks. Be all grumpy and studious rina! Hoho.

Hence, less of playing around.

Before i go on hiatus,

i would want to say that... i can totally drive on my own !

Big accomplishment baybeh :D

and, guess what i first did ?

Brought my baobei nikkie for grooming, and my brothers for lunch.

Not forgetting, Mr.Sek's tuition. Bwahahaha.

See ! They mean that much to me.

Oh and btw,

i'm single.

Hence, prom date-less.

So, if you do need company or a friend for prom..

i'll be happy to teman :)

Not that i mind going alone though.

I love my family.

happy, lame, simple and loving :)

the one family who rides banana boat without getting wet. Haha !

Okie. Bye bye :D

Winston's 17th birhtday.

2009-09-05T01:58:00.000-07:00

Eileen, Cheryl, and Amelia.

Shermaine and Cheryl.

Grab these few pictures off facebook. I'm not used to bringing around camera with me when i'm out. Hence, i don't really take much pictures when i'm out. Pictures taken at Winston's 17th birthday. It was a pool party. Hence, got tossed into the pool several times. Sigh. The amount of water that i ~~drank~~ inhaled through my nose ! lol. Anyway, don't mind my hair, i had no towel to dry 'em and barely comb my hair after that. Haha.

Had japanese buffet before that with Amelia. Had a little shopping therapy too. Couldn't find a suitable graduation and prom dress though. But it was all good :) Amelia and i talk and talked. Talked until we fell asleep on the floor at midnight while waiting for her dad to come pick her up. Haha ! So sorry i couldn't wake up when your dad came, babe ! But we should really do more of this :)

It's been a tiring week. Well, trials finally over. I'm going to be so emo when i face my results. Haha. Okay, i hate to admit but I've been a little too emotional lately. And, this is bad. I guess i'm not used to telling anybody how i really feel. It feels weird having to tell anybody at all, even my best friends. Hence, holding it back all the time.

Haha. I'm using alot of 'hence'. Too much of exams questions !
Okay, it feels weird blogging to myself.

Joonjern, you said my blog is boring. What else should i blog about ? lol.
Suyin, let's skype ! Miss you, dong.

2009-08-30T08:08:00.000-07:00

Decided to drive down to Klang. All geared up for bakuteh session with family :)

Happy merdeka, peoples ! which also means,

a birthday shout out to leawailin baybeh !

Happy birthday, babe. I know you'll certainly have a great one ;)

2009-08-29T09:09:00.001-07:00

Make a Smilebox postcard

lol. Just for fun ;)

2009-08-29T05:37:00.000-07:00

Amelia, Rina, Puiyee, Yeeleng :)

Spot the difference ! hoho.

2009-08-27T12:51:00.000-07:00

violets are red,

roses are blue,

not going to say much,

but which of this is true.

daisy's are white

buttercup are yellow

don't worry powerpuffgirls are here,

to save the day, my fellow.

hahahahahaha. ok, i'm lame :D

2009-08-26T01:45:00.000-07:00

" Look over there, Nikkie. Got elephant. "

2009-08-25T10:57:00.000-07:00

i want to be strong.

2009-08-22T10:42:00.000-07:00

Picture taken while waiting for unclevijan to pick us three up. Went out with the boys today. Brought them out for a movie, arcade and ice skate. Made quite a big damage in the pockets today. Overall, a happy day :)

2009-08-21T10:21:00.000-07:00

one week down, another week of trials to go.

- i need to do some shopping tomorrow. i need a break :D

- i droveee :D

- exam was okay.

- but why am i still feeling so empty.

- where did all my enthusiasm go ah ?

- well, i have the week off to drag myself back into place.

- going to study add maths kao kao baybeh !

- few parties lined up. yeay.

'' say hello to the camera, sayang oi. ''

'' bluek ''

I am sam.

2009-08-16T01:56:00.000-07:00

i cried. i hate to admit, but i cried like a big fat baby.

It's truly a heartwarming story :)

little update.

2009-08-14T09:19:00.000-07:00

1. Watched G.I.JOE and The Proposal.

I love The Proposal. Yes, typical cliched chick flick. But, it's really nice. Managed to convince mum to come along too :)

2. Passed my driving test.

Hence, won't have to hassle others with all my tuition schedule, one tuition after another. Yup, main reason to why i took up driving.

3. Got this really cute speaker.

It's like a small bouncy ball :)

4. Really need to start searching for my outfit.

Both Prom and Graduation night.

5. Missing school !

Yet, i could get used to this whole home schooling concept.

6. Mega sales and bazaar at 3k Inn tomorrow.

7. can't think of anything else.

although it seemed like i've been more occupied than this.

so... bye bye ! Heh. Take care :)

2009-08-12T03:54:00.000-07:00

my blog is filled with my narcissistic pictures, taken at the same place. Aren't you bored and sick of my pictures ? I'm bored too. I'm rarely out. And when i'm out, i don't take pictures. Hence, blogging is just left with pictures in my photobooth. Harhar :)

I need to study. I've been on my table for about half a day. Staring at my business text book. And guess how much i've accomplished ?

1 chapter ! can you imagine, 1 chapter. Just one miserable chapter.

I'm dead. Yeeha :D

things have changed, a new route.

2009-08-11T10:04:00.000-07:00

Sigh. I need a happy song right away ! Any recommendation ?

It's definitely not working with the song i'm currently listening to.

smile big big

2009-08-10T08:21:00.000-07:00

It's confirmed. Will be taking my driving test this friday. Wish me luck ! Samuel said i'll be taking my exam trials in the hospital because of driving. Pfft.

Big shout out to nurhaznina yaw ;)

2009-08-08T05:42:00.000-07:00

Once upon a time...

back in those days...

( haha, i make it sound like we're that old )

HAPPPY 15th BIRTHDAY, MY SAYANG ! :D

You've been nothing but the greatest friend. The soul with the sincerest heart. Whom doesn't need much elaboration and introduction. You're the bomb, babe ! Me lub you :P

* error edited.

Hahaha I'm so sorry babe. I've always accepted you of someone my age :)

2009-08-08T01:26:00.000-07:00

my younger brother :)

:)

2009-08-07T06:08:00.000-07:00

Curly or straight hair ? I'm contemplating. Help !

For the past few days, i've witnessed and experienced.. well, a whole new level of revelation. An eye opener. I've changed. In and out. But of course, i'm still me. Just me, with a little new perception. I don't think i'd be able to put it into words exactly :)

Ooh well, school's closed for one calender week due to H1N1. and, first day of trials is postponed. That said, i need to study !

very manja oh.

i have sweet tooth.

2009-08-03T21:26:00.000-07:00

hi :)

a failed attempt of acting cute. har har.

whaaa ???

a miserable candid and sepet eyes.

a spastic smile !

woohoo.

Take care everyone. H1n1 is already in our school ! Hopefully Mr.Chew decides to shut down the school, simply because trials is coming. So we can all just put aside trials and forget about it. Bwahaha.